16. Questioning.

“Why did I hurt someone who was the only one who cared about me? and Why do I always seem to hurt those close to me somehow?” that was what Barrier was thinking at the moment as Barrier was a young adult male Transformer who used to be a Autobot but was now a Decepticon who had turned againtest and had hurted his only friend mainly he had hurted his friend Goldblade Bumblebee’s son who was Barrier close friend when he had still been on the Autobot side and Barrier was now thinking to himself about all the bad things he had done at the moment as deep down he had not meant to harm anyone and he felt very bad for what he had done but at the same time he knew that he could not leave the Decepticons as the Decepticons would not let him leave the Decepticons side and all at the moment right now Barrier was lucky a enough to find sometime to be alone by himself for a bit as he was now walking alone though a forest by himself as he could not help but question himself if he was doing the right thing by staying on the Decepticon side as he felt so out of place and not sure if he was doing the right thing or not Barrier was in his robot mode at this moment and he looked just like his father Barricade ( the movie style Barricade of course) only Barrier armor was mostly purple and black with some yellow here and there though he did have dark red optics just like his father though Barrier felt so confused and lost now at the moment as he was not even sure of who he was anymore as he then digged his sharp claws down hard into the side of a cave wall and moved his claws down leaving deep claws marks on the cave wall as Barrier was now trying to hold back the tears of upsetness that where trying to now pour down his face as he just holded back his tears as he was too prideful to let his real feelings show as he  just kept his claws digged into the side of the cave wall as he just banged his head a few times againtest the cave wall not caring if he was hurting himself a bit as he then stopped doing that as he had some bit of energon pouring just a bit from a sight cut that he now had on his face and near his head which he had got when he had banged his head on the cave wall as Barrier just sighed under his breath as he just then sited down as he watched the night sky for a bit now as he was now wondering on what he should do now as he then got up and started to head back to the decepticons base now not knowing that his life would soon change in a way that he would never thought it would.